Looking Forward to 2010
Every year around this time, I don’t give it much thought as it’s just another year gone by. However, this year made me think a lot about life, and it’s not because the troubled economy has affected our lives. Perhaps that’s a catalyst. It’s more about how I have come to know what I want and more importantly, what I don’t want in life.
As a mother – Matthew has taught me a lot even though he’s only 18 months old. He started talking a lot recently and he can’t say anything better than that clear sounding word “no!” Oh boy. I’ve always known that when it comes to being a parent, I’m not going to be in the driver’s seat. I just didn’t know that it can start so early. I know I don’t want to be controlling and forcing him to do things that I want. I will learn from him, his likes/dislikes, and learn to be a supporter for the little guy at the same time teach not preach, ask not impose, appreciate and not blame.
As a wife – Ed has been working hard all year and has made a deliberate choice to be entrepreneurial. This economy proved to be difficult for many, particularly for those trying to start their own businesses. I know I don’t want to add more stress and pressure on top of what he’s already dealing with.
As an employee – I don’t want to work at a place where my contribution adds little or no value. I will challenge myself in new areas so that I can not only grow professionally but also be rewarded financially. I will take my skills to new levels and work hard to capture new opportunities.
As a daughter – I don’t want to be a daughter who is still the kid in their parents’ eyes. I want to be the daughter who is the adult and the parents become the “children”. It’s time for me to show that I can be there for them and provide them a sense of security and comfort as they get older.
As a friend – Friends taught me to recognize differences and because we are all different, that’s what makes life interesting and wonderful. I will be more understanding of people’s choices in life given the circumstances. I will support their choices even if they are different from mine. I will be more open minded.
While I don’t know if 2010 will turn out to be a better year but I know what I don’t want and I better work on what I want.
